Words to understand, but never to be spoken

Maybe there should be a chance,

maybe everything should make sense,

like the way I take risks.

I do them because it makes me feel alive,

standing around waiting for the consequences

of my actions to hit is far from uninteresting.

I live for a moment that has yet to happen.

I look for an open door in a barred down hallway.

I want to show my potential

by smashing through these walls,

these barriers that have been up for far too long.

Let me take a risk,

let me do things no one thought I would do

because after all just me is all i am.

I am the mirror of your friends,

I am what you think me to be

only because its easier for you to understand.

Only a few people can unlock the true me,

and they don't care exactly why I am the way I am

in front of different people but lets not conceal your judgements

because it makes it easier to improve on ones self.

I am the standing words that everyone likes to read.

I can be your best friend because I envy you,

or I can be your worst nightmare

because you remind me of myself.

I can't show you the true potential

because everything is dim and pointless.

I can speak to you if you want me to

but I have no reason to continue,

I dont like the way you think sometimes

because its too simplistic

and everything I do is so much more serious and complex.

Dont give me your sympathies because frankly,

they are less then believeable.

If you see me in a crowd, please feel free to talk to me,

but don't wait for me to speak while holding your breath

because you will lose your oxygen waiting

and fall to the inevitable.