"Unanswered Questions" or "Inside looking out"

Rushing... confusing...

drowning in this blur of thoughts...

You know those times when you just

think, and think, and think...

until it all becomes a blur in your head
and you just wanna stop

cause it hurts to think,

but then you start thinking,

"Why am I thinking about this?"...

and it goes on, regardless of your attempts to stop.

I ask a lot of questions I don't always have answers to.

Sometimes I do stuff, say stuff, feel stuff...

and I don't really know why.

I think about stuff, and I don't really know why.

Sometimes I ask questions that

I don't really want answers to

Does that strike you as weird?

I guess that makes me... me

Things that used to matter,

suddenly don't matter anymore.
And things that didn't matter...

all of a sudden, I find that they do.

Is this what happens when people change?

Maybe I'm changing. Is that good?

I'm not too sure myself.

All I know is that I'm not

who I want to be - who I should be...

and yet, I'm enjoying it to a certain extent.

My life's little irony.

No matter how hard I try, or how much I do...

it will never be enough.

Somehow or another,

they will always find a way

to make me feel like I don't belong.

And you know what, that's okay,

I'm done trying.

I guess there's only so much a person can take.

I used to be outside, looking in...

Now, here I am: inside, looking out.