30 things about me you may not already know

1. I'm a dreamer. Its true-- I love to see all the possibility in things and how great they can be.

2. I'm starting to get better at that optimism thing as well.

3. I've always been one to dream what could be, but know deep down inside that it would probably never happen.

4. I have confidence in most things, but there are those few times and moments where I just need someone to remind me of that confidence.

5. When I know I'm capable of something though, there is no stopping me.

6. I've always believed that persistence can get you what you want.

7. I love routine and tradition. But I also welcome change. Without change, there's no possibility for new things. But the comfort that routine brings is also important.

8. I love-- with my whole heart. If you become someone important to me, I will pretty much do anything for you. I'm the friend you can call at 3am and I'll listen, come get you or whatever you need.

9. Those certain people I can still call my best friends will come first no matter what.

10. I love to laugh. At any and everything.

11. I'm not much for dancing or clubs. I like more dorky things like playing board games or going bowling. I love hiking and being outdoors

12. I love writing, and I've found it's the easiest way for me to say what I'm feeling.

13. I love music... random kinds, but mostly rock and alternative.

14. I'm really, really sensitive but I also have a quick rebound time and it won't take much to make things okay.

15. I forgive, but I probably won't forget. I have an incredibly good memory.... I pay attention to detail.

16. I love thunderstorms.

17. I could eat turkey sandwiches all the time and be okay with it.

18. Don't ask me to dance.... I will tell you no. But don't take it personally.

19. If I'm upset, I will be quiet. If I have something important to say-- I'll struggle and start and stop but within 10 minutes I'll say what I need to.

20. I want to go to Ireland someday.

21. Needles are a phobia -- so are spiders and bugs of any kind. Buzzing is my least favorite sound and it can easily drive me insane. If there is a bee in the room, don't expect me to pay attention to anything else.

22. I won't swim in the ocean, but I love the beach & sharks.

23. I have strong opinions ... I will share them, but only when I feel so inclined. Generally speaking, I think before I speak -- especially in large groups. But once you get to know me, I am an open book. Don't be put off by my apparent shyness ... because shy is the last thing to describe me accurately.

24. I do not like being told things just to make me happy. I would rather be told the truth and be hurt than be "protected" and happy. I overreact sometimes. Don't be afraid to tell me I'm wrong or out of line. I like people who are strong enough to face me when I'm raging ... people who will let me angry for a little while ... people who won't think less of me for my somewhat sporadic mood swings.

25. When I'm hurt, I withdraw. I threaten to run away from the situation that is causing me pain. All I want is to be told honestly that I'm loved ... that I should stay ... sometimes I need to hear it multiple times. But if you'll be a little persistent, I'll give in.

26. If I'm really close to you, I might start picking fights over stupid things ... for no reason. It means I'm bored. That things have gotten monotonous.

27. I love just going with the flow ... I don't always want things planned out.

28. When it comes to making plans for hanging out, I'm very indecisive -- there are too many things I would really like to do ... and I'm afraid you won't like what I choose. So most of the time I won't pick what to do.

29. I want to be respected -- I want my feelings to be respected and my thoughts to be respected. More than anything else, I want my body to be respected. I know how to be sexy, I know how to be desirable. I choose not to be those things because I do not want what comes when one intentionally creates a sexy persona. I like being told that I'm beautiful ... I like being told I'm sexy -- because those are not things I strive to be ... but I want my boundaries respected.

30. I am afraid of being lonely ... of having my heart broken ... of not being appreciated or wanted. Of people not knowing how much they mean to me. I'm afraid of drowning, of choking and of not understanding. I'm not afraid to be myself or of interacting with people who are different than me. I'm not afraid to admit that I'm wrong, but I will rarely admit it publicly.